Decision time

So right after that bout of sunshine things have gone down the tube at twice the speed.

I need to make a decision and stop being a chicken sitting on the fence. And I need to do that now. Because I haven’t cried in a long, long time and today made me cry. And the tears just wont bloody stop.

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14 thoughts on “Decision time

  1. *hugs*
    Hope you get the clarity you need real soon and make a decision. It’ll get better, I promise. Just sleep when it gets unbearable (that’s what I do). There IS such a thing as Sophie’s Choice and maybe that’s why it’s so hard to make a decision……….? Maybe it’s not about you being a chicken on the fence..? Give yourself a break, girl.

    1. You’ve hit the nail on the head TWC. It is a Sophie’s-Choice-kinda-thing here and thats precisely whats turning me inside out. But I think I’ve made my decision now. Its just a question of taking the next step and being a little brave in the face of uncertainty thats heading my way.

        1. Well if I were to really think hard, the solution that stops me from feeling this miserable and shitty IS the best solution. But it comes at a cost. And thats the hard bit. Happiness/satisfaction over stability/money..
          The old me wouldnt even have thought nothing should come between me and my peace of mind. But these strange situations have made me diffident and strangely I dont trust my gut so much anymore. Thats what saddened me the most. Everything I think, I re-think. And I’m tired of going around in circles.

          Ok enough ranting :)
          Today is a new day and I’m feeling better. So hurrah to that!

  2. eh! there’s nothing that will keep you down for long. you’ve made the decision. go for it. in your heart, you know what’s right and what’s wrong. for you.
    sometimes, tears really help clear things up, they wash away the clutter. So, good. it’s gone!

  3. Good luck!! I recently made a work-related, work-status aletring decision – was quite nervous for the first few weeks. But now I feel light. Hope you find your sunshine soon!

    1. Well I’m feeling better, because the intensity of things have just sort of died down. I don’t know how long it will stay this way. But for now, things are alright :)

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