Day 71: Pretending to be brave

11 Mar

At the start of March I ambitiously paid for a whole month of kickboxing classes. I used to go in only 3 times a week, and was nearly dead by Friday. Just three times a week and yet, for the last few months, I’d been seriously slacking off, taking too many shortcuts and giving into every slight desire to bunk a class and sleep in. The only way to break out of it was to up the ante, so I went ahead and paid up for a 5-days-a-week set up. Two weeks done. I’ve survived it. Aching and tired, but I made it.

I started the month with a promise to cut back on the daily dessert binging and the alcohol intake. I started off by saying I’d go off it completely, but realised pretty soon that that approach has never worked for me, never will. So I’ve altered it to cutting back, and allowing myself the odd indulgence. No more sugar/chocolate/dessert fixes after every meal. No more drinking 2-3 times a week.

Two weeks in and I’ve eaten a piece of chocolate on two occasions. One rasmalai last weekend, when I also consumed half a bottle of wine. And a few glasses two days ago* but I’ve survived it without going too insane. There was that one day when I had a very, very only too real struggle with demolishing the image of a gooey warm cake fudge from Corner House that suddenly manifested in my mind and just refused to go away. Eventually, it did.

For months now I’ve been pitching a range of international publications to get new story ideas out there and broaden my perspective. I want to go wide as far as publications are concerned, and go deep with the themes I write about. I’ve had varying luck, but it has been an excruciatingly slow and painful learning curve. A couple of days ago, I was nearly done with the day’s work. I was about to shut my laptop down when I saw the little postit I’d stuck at the corner of my desk to remind me that I wasn’t going to end work for the day without pitching that story. I’d been dillydallying over that one for a while because it’s a format of writing I have never done before, I’d have to pitch it to a bigish “popular” publication that I’ve never done before, and writing the story itself will require me to glean form my personal experience. SCARY.

But enough procrastination, I said. Sat down, wrote a brief recalling valuable inputs that S gave me a few days ago, ran it past VC who helped me chisel away at it further and essentially turn it into a sales pitch. This is something I’ve never done before. The most crucial mistake I’ve been making is to make every pitch a little snippet or a preview of the story I have in mind. That day however, I made the pitch sellable, it had a clear hook. And it took a lot of putting myself out there, getting out of the comfort zone I am so used to, and finally after some hemming and hawing, I hit send.

*I plied myself with a couple of glasses of wine before I got to the point of doing it. It has to be said.

But. It paid off, because I received a positive response in under ten minutes.

I was gobsmacked and did a happy (mildly-drunk) dance around the room.

So, I’ve been trying slowly but surely to be brave in areas I didn’t think I was. Push myself a little, get out of the comfort zone, live a little. And scary as it has been, it hasn’t backfired entirely. No post-facto shaky feet either.


On to new challenges, then? The first of which is the very real one of having to write said piece.

Given the no-alcohol promise I’m going to have to find some other poison (or narcotic) to actually get down to writing the story. And try and make a kickass job of it. No pressure, really.



19 Responses to “Day 71: Pretending to be brave”

  1. R March 11, 2016 at 7:54 pm #

    If I haven’t already said it before, here it is – You are a braveheart and a hero. In so many ways, big and small. I know you will laugh, reading this, but that doesn’t matter :D. Hugs. Here’s to many new and big and beautiful things to come.

    • hAAthi March 12, 2016 at 10:45 am #

      Youre TOO TOO TOO kind, R :D Im brave in some areas, yes. But there are others where I’m not, especially with work, and I’ve felt like I’m not really getting the best I can give myself, unless I do the pushing. I’m making baby steps – lets see!

  2. Deb March 11, 2016 at 9:27 pm #

    Wonderful news this!! I am sure the story will be kick-ass….
    And a glass of wine here or there is a part of the routine H. Think antioxidants bla bla! :)

    • hAAthi March 12, 2016 at 10:45 am #

      Antioxidants! hahaha – totally using that one :D

  3. My Era March 11, 2016 at 10:16 pm #

    You inspire me with every post, every thought.
    Way to go girl, keep rocking, braving and going places :)

    • hAAthi March 12, 2016 at 10:46 am #

      It’s no biggie really. Writing about it this way just feeds my fragile ego ;)

  4. Deepa March 12, 2016 at 2:15 am #

    I’m so excited for you!! You must post a link to said article when it finally gets published (I know these things are commissioned far far in advance ). It sounds way more fun than the financial management assignment I have on my plate today.
    As for the other things……I did less than 5 min of squats the other day and was sore for 2 days as a result. I have a lot of muscle re-awakening to do so I feel ya sista!

    • hAAthi March 12, 2016 at 10:47 am #

      Will do. Im also finally compiling a separate website for my writing, which I should have up and going very soon. Will post that link here for sure.

      Financial management?! What *are* you studying? And is that why you haven’t blogged in yonks?

      • Deepa March 16, 2016 at 5:15 pm #

        A year ago I had the slightly mad idea to do an MBA. So that’s what I’ve been whittling away at for the past year. Also working full time so something has to give and in this case it’s the blog to some extent (as well as my waistline it would seem!).

        • hAAthi March 16, 2016 at 8:20 pm #

          Now *that’s* truly BRAVE! go you!

  5. vishalbheeroo March 12, 2016 at 4:29 am #

    You know been promising myself to cut off smoking and sweets..just not happening. Had a fulfilling day, been editing stories and all. Coming with a content platform for Global Indians across the spectrum. Quite a herculean task. Drop me your mail, would shoot out something for inputs from you. Cheerz

    • hAAthi March 12, 2016 at 10:48 am #

      Haha, the sweets thing is such a universal problem it seems. But with smoking, I know there’s no cutting back. You either continue to smoke, of you go cold turkey. I live with a smoker who is perpetually trying to cut back, and 10 years down he hasnt budged :D

      What content platform is this? Sure, email me – I will see how I can help.

      • vishalbheeroo March 16, 2016 at 4:33 am #

        Targeting Indians across the Globe, it’s all about India and inherent charm, for the diaspora and the same time being rooted to the country.

  6. The Gypsy Girl March 14, 2016 at 11:54 am #

    Cake fudge at Corner House. Sigh! One of the few things I miss about Bangalore now.

    Also, I’m sure you’ll do a great job with the writing assignment. I think it’s awesome that you’re trying to explore things that are out of your comfort zone. Go you!

    • hAAthi March 16, 2016 at 3:53 pm #

      Tiny baby steps, one at a time :)

  7. puja March 14, 2016 at 11:55 am #

    I cannot just wait for the story to be written and devoured… :) .. all the best ..


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